Return to the Stream

It is of my utmost pleasure to announce that I have returned to xanga to bid a fond welcome to all of my friends.  To fill everyone in, I have now had my child.  Aogii and I decided to name her 'Kaori' as a combination of both KK-chan and Lily-chan's names in Japanese.  I must admit, it as an odd name, but I think it will suit her, as she will be an odd child, just reading from there chi.  I am extremely glad to be back, and I now reside in a little district off of Tokyo, close to Chiba, yes where Disneyland is.  I must say that I am none too happy with my surroundings, as my mother won the court trial through bribery.  I cannot say anything, as she aims to smear my name for the sake of her's if I should expose her deceitful behavior.  To be honest, I don't see her often, even if she does live here with me, and I am happy with Kaori to keep me company during the days.  Her birthday is June 2nd, 2007, a mere 9 days from my own.  She is of the zodiac sign of the Golden Boar, which makes her a lucky little one.  I am ecstatic to have Kaori to keep me company. 

As for me, I plan to lose all of this baby weight, as Terri was right, basketball shaped is a girl, and hope to enter into Tokyo University in the later months of fall, presumably August or September.  Aogii has been helpful by working and preparing the home in Okinawa for my return, and I shall be happy to say that I shall be moving back to Okinawa.  How I miss the gentle lapping of the waves and my constant explorations of it's countless caves and small crevices.  Onto other news.  I've been successful at keeping Kaori from feeling any discomfort due to my lack of a presence when I soul rip, and was able to during the pregnancy through the use of the aforementioned chi bracelets and other odds and ends.  I'm ever so glad to be back to talk to everyone, and wish to give my most sincere and humble thanks to Terri, KK-chan, Lily-chan, and Aogii.  Also to all the people in L.A. who send me letters every now and again.  I thank you all for your support.

My mother has relented to my pleas to return to Okinawa under the condition that I live with her again when I attend Tokyo U.  Somehow, she has arranged for all of this, and also forbids me from marrying Aogii anytime soon.  We consented to those demands, and I now have most of my freedom back.  I miss my dogs, and wish to return to my real home where I am not smothered by the constant chit chat of the servants as they tend to Kaori and me.  I wish to be on my own once again, and that dream might be realized soon.  My mother cannot say that I have not been a good daughter, as I have tried to consent to all of her whims and wishes while I have resided here.  There is not much else to say except that I shall be traveling around Japan to celebrate the new life Aogii and I have made together. 

I'm sure through the thick of it all, Aogii, Kaori, and I shall be happy in the end, and I must thank all of my loyal friends for staying by my side as I went through a trial that would not have been so smooth if I did not have the underlying comfort of my loved ones.  Thank you to you all.

Arigatou,

Akane Tsukino and Kaori Shikoi

Getting by

Good day to everyone.  I must apologize for not coming online in a long time, and I have no other to blame than myself.  It's good to hear that I have some close friends that are rooting for me, and I'm glad to hear of all the good news, from Lily getting published to KK-chan's new costumes. *smiles*  Anyways, a small update on what has ben happening around the house and Japan.

I've been travelling extensively, and moving around Japan.  Aogii would like for us to live in my home in Okinawa, although I would rather to stray from my family's main branch.  The child I am carrying is a girl, as I've read into her chi quite a bit, and from here, I've taken a liking to Kaori as her name.  I was leaning towards a western feel for her name, but in the end, I really liked this one. Now, onto the good news that Lily-chan has been begging me to tell her.  If I can, I shall request that the godmother (s) of Kaori to be Lily and KK.  Yes Lily, I am serious, and yes, KK-chan has known this for quite sometime. *wide smile* I'm glad to announce it.  Terri and Rob, I thank you for standing beside me, and for the person that hosts seeker4truth, I thank you as well.  All's well, and I'd like to thank you for the gifts I received from the California coastline.  *cough* 

Now, there is bad news, but I'm not sure if it will follow through, and I hope they don't.  One, I've been having a lot of trouble with my mother.  Lily and KK already know of my bitterness towards her, and she is now trying to force me to live with her.  I would not like this, as she would cut off anything I have to do with my friends, and leave me to be a literal 'housewife' if you could say.  This does not bode well, as I have Tokyo University in the next semester.  She also encourages this because I cannot go to school without a babysitter, and I can't stay in Okinawa.  So, if she gets the legal rights, to I may be cut off from society until my pregnancy and college years are over.  Most likely, I'll try for a transfer, but I'm pretty sure that she's sent in my acceptance and transcript to Tokyo U., and now I must wait until the first year is over.  *sighs*  Life does not seem as great as it should be for a person carrying such a small infant in her, but I shall cope.  What worries me most is that I won't be able to rip with Lily and talk to KK, and also I won't be able to post here.  I'd hate to suddenly have to leave everyone I have met so far, as you are all very dear to me.  Let us hope that the legal documents are not passed, as my mother would have full custody of me once again. 

Aogii is being a good sport, and helps me often as my back has begun to ache quite a bit at night.  We'll probably be married as soon as I lose the baby weight after the birth of our daughter.  If all goes well, we plan to host the marriage in Ohio.  Yes, Lily and KK, I would like to get married with you two in my presence.  Oritoki is being a dear, and helps me with school and shopping.  Although I have my helpers, I don't like to lean on them, and I'd also like to be a good wife, so I'm refining my skills. The results from the court shall be in soon, and I cross my fingers and hope that they follow what I wish, and not what my mother does, as I will be helpless. 

Blessings to KK, Lily, Terri, Rob, my friends here, my friends in Los Angeles, and to Aogii, as the New Year is coming soon.  The year of the pig and prosperity. Also the year in which I'll have my child.  I love you all, remember that, and I'll be back soon.  Best wishes,

Akane

Good News

Before I start to tell of the good news, I guess I must explain what I call 'splitting with Lily-chan.' Well, Lily-chan and I have referred to it a good number of times, but I never really explained it, and so forgive me for not explaining sooner. Well, when I soul rip, I could wander around the places that have a personal connection with myself, or I could split with Lily-chan (in which I usually do). Splitting is simply sharing two souls in one body. It depletes the host's level of chi very much, but once mastered, it shouldn't become a problem. Lily-chan and I do it all the time. I will go to school, and then usually stay after to speak to friends and then when I am home, I will 'rip' and split with Lily-chan for the rest of her day (which usually ends up me being at her school until around 1-5 am in my time zone). It's not hard, but it can be dangerous. How this doesn't kill a person, I do not know, but I have a theory. When I split, I notice that I only literally have half of my soul in her body, as Lily-chan only has half a soul also. The other halves, I believe go to my body in Okinawa, and rest there. That's one of the reasons why I don't feel exhausted when I return, nor does Lily. I also believe that multiple souls conform to one to form the current one as of date, for the souls of our past lives live on within us, so our bodies can handle it. But don't take my word, for I have no idea if I am right or wrong. It's just one of those things that can never nor should ever be explained fully. Sometimes I wonder if man is gluttonous and wants too much knowledge. Living a simple but happy existence is all I ask, but well... in today's society... you know. *shrugs*

On to the good news! Lily-chan literally wanted to throttle me when she found this out, as I've been causing her extreme sickness, but... oh well. *shrugs again* Are you ready? Hmmm... I would really like to draw this out just to agrivate some. *hums* *Lily-chan brandishes broken shinai at her* Fine, fine... Well, I don't know how to really say this, but.... I'm pregnant. Hai, you heard (read) me right. I'm pregnant. I just figured out today, to be exact. Yes, I know I'm only in high school, and I've got Tokyo U. to look forward to, but I imagine I can handle school and a child. Besides I have my maids at home to help if I really need it. Although Lily-chan and myself didn't notice, I believe her father did, for he gave Lily-chan a chi bracelet. He infused it with all three of our chi and now Lily-chan has to wear it for atleast a year. I checked with my doctor, and I'm just about three weeks in. The baby will be born in June or July of next year, so she'll be born in the year of the boar. Yes, she. No, I haven't found out for sure, but I feel as if it is a girl, and I do hope so. And of course, it is Aogii and mine's baby. We're not sure what to name her, but we're thinking. If you have suggestions, please feel free to tell me. Anyways, I've already talked with Aogii's parents, and they agree that I should marry Aogii when I am finished with high school, before the baby is born. My mother highly disagrees, but seeing as she's never around, I won't pay much mind to her. Well, now that that burden is off my shoulders, let me explain a couple of subjects.

The chi bracelet afore mentioned is a bracelet made of ... anou... I cannot remember now. I'm not sure, but anyway, Lily-chan's father talked to me and told me not to allow Lily-chan to take it off for the next year. I didn't understand at first, but the next day, morning sickness began. Well, evening sickness really, for I was splitting with Lily-chan. We blamed it on the bracelet at first, but after consoling to Aogii, I went to the doctor's and lo and behold, I'm pregnant. I do wonder why I didn't notice at first, but I think that it's because I presumed the extra presence was either not strong enough to notice yet, or I was so used to Lily-chan's own presence. The chi bracelet is to control our levels of output when Lily-chan and I split, for too much chi givin to my small child will result in catastrophe. Lily-chan can take the bracelet off after birth, but she's keeping it for a year just to be safe.

I can feel Aogii and my child's chi. It is weak, but I can tell she'll have abnormal levels of chi as well. *smiles* Another one of the 'odd' ones. When I split now, Lily-chan and I have a third prescence in her body. Heh, she threw a fit when she found out. *remembers and smiles broadly* I remember feeling warm last month, but I brushed it off. I wondered why morning sickness didn't effect me right away, but after some research, this is about the right time (it's actually presumed to start at 3 months, but I have no idea. *sighs* I'm so new to this). Lily-chan has been cooped up at home, vomiting her life out of her, but even though I insist, she won't allow me to leaver her. She just smiles and then tells me to tell her more stories about Aogii. If I dare say, I think she likes being the 'second mother' to this new life. We are so odd. *smiles again*

I'm now very nervous as one: I've never given thought to becoming pregnant, and I didn't ever plan to become a mother so young. I could say that I'm scared too, as I wonder if I'll even be a decent mother, but.. I also feel very warm and safe. (Oh my, that was corny) To expand, when I think of this new life growing inside of me, I feel happy and content. *shakes head* No, more like I feel joy to know that my generation will live on. Heh, I feel so vulnerable. *Lily-chan starts to mentally throttle her* *laughs* Hai, Lily-chan I guess that I CAN be a complete baka when it comes to being a mother. Ah well, wish me luck, everyone! *smiles and waves*

Arigatou,

Akane

Returning

As you all know from Lily-chan, I presume, I've been incapacitated for some time, and I'd like to apologize to all that worried over me. For those that don't know, to put it simply, I was in a coma. Now to expand. Because of the time I spent healing in Los Angeles, I ended up becoming very sick when I returned to Okinawa. When I fell asleep, I awoke later to find that my soul was resting on the ceiling, and that I could not return to my physical body. By pure luck, a fragment was still situated in my body, or else I would have not been able to return permanently. Anyways, with the last of my strength, I made my way over to Lily-chan's body, asking her to allow me to rest inside of her. What happened was that I nearly died, and the only thing that sustained me was Lily-chan's healing chi. I was becoming marginally better by the time 2 weeks had passed, and her father assisted by giving me a lot of physical chi and healing chi which made Lily-chan ever more sick. By what I heard later, she says that she received a phone call from a distressed grandmother of mine, and she was in a state of dismay, as was KK-chan. The same day that Lily-chan's father assisted me, Lily-chan pulled a little healing chi from KK-chan as well, and that made me feel marginally better. KK-chan's healing chi is exceptionally valuable, though she has little of it. And as Lily-chan explains to you all on her site: www.xanga.com/lilysmanga, I was able to pull through later the same day.

The most frightening thing was probably the night before I returned, I could feel myself slipping, and do you know what death is like? It's like a river of souls. I could see, it, and I kept trying to go to it, to release me from pain. But Lily-chan desperately held on to me, and kept calling me, but I could only faintly hear it. I believe that the journey to ultimate death varies for the soul, not one heaven or one hell. Lily-chan kept mentally yelling at me to return, and that if I didn't she'd throttle me. *snorts* I don't see sense in that, but it pulled me back from the edge of death. So I thank her numerous times for saving me, though now she just blushes and says it was nothing, and that I am an idiot. I guess I am. *smiles* I thank KK-chan for her healing chi, as well as her father. Terri and Rob who were praying to me, and to Aogii for staying by my physical body at the hospital.

Now onto something not so angsty.

I am spending my days at school, and then proceeding home, where I spend my hours speaking with Aogii, and then going to Lily-chan where I wander her school, and bother her. Only she can see me, but I believe that some students have seen me, and that has resulted in a little mayhem. *laughs* That is all for today, and my next post shall be about the next step in soul ripping.

Arigatou for reading,

Akane

'Sora ni wa hoshi-tachi daichi ni wa hana ga saite-iru soshite boku no uchuu ni kimi ga ite.' 'In the sky, there are stars, in the ground, the flowers are blooming, and in my universe, there is you.'

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Welcoming Home

Ohayou Gozaimatsu, Americans, and Konnichiwa to Japanese,

It's been a long time, ne? I've had the worst, and best time in America. I just recently got home from America, so now I'm situated in Okinawa now. Lily-chan has been literally knocking into my brain to post for the past couple of days. I'm actually situated inside of her, but she is allowing me to take somewhat full possession, so that I may type this entry. Before she gives me a massive headache, she threatens. *scoffs* As if I don't already have one.

We arrived in Los Angeles after spending a day in Tokyo, to catch the plane that left the day after, so my companions decided to visit Tokyo Disneyland, while I stayed behind at the hotel; resting. Our flight was smooth, though I'd much rather boat. The plane hit a lot of turbulence when we were crossing the Pacific, and Orotoki was scared to her wits end. I however, slept right through it, and decided not to consume the food that was offered, for fear of vomiting later on. I'm not too sure that I like to travel by plane. At least not for long amounts of time. Aogii was having a grand time, reading up on his future college textbooks (which I am amazed that he didn't get a headache from), and Sagurasei also slept, or watched the movie that was showing, which I paid no mind to. When we landed in Los Angeles, it was in the middle of the day, though we checked into a hotel, and rested there, from a serious bout of jet lag.

The next day, we did venture out into the city, and we split up. Aogii and I heading to Hollywood, and Oritoki and Sagurasei looking for a place to eat. We did find a fine Japanese Cuisine restaurant, and we stopped there for lunch. They even had Okinamiyaki, made with mayonnaise sauce! I'd never heard of anywhere that had okinamiyaki in America, so I was pleased with the turnout. Later, we took a trolley tour, where it was just sitting in an air-conditioned bus, and going by the Hollywood sign, some houses of rich people. *switches for a moment* Lily: None larger than Akane's though, I bet! ^^ *switches back* Well, I thank Lily-chan for the interruption, and I shall bestow upon her the gift of pain. We also visited the Walk of Fame, and then paid a visit to the Chinese Theater, which was splendid. I really enjoyed the first day. The next day, we didn't really do much, since most of the larger sights that we had planned, were already done, but we did manage to book a plane, and the four of us flew over Los Angeles, which was beautiful. We passed over mountain ranges, valleys, the driver even did sudden dips in the air, which caused us to rise an alarming amount of space between our bottoms, and the seats we were strapped into. Then next day was sweltering hot, so we went clubbing that night. And the next night. And the next. And the next. You understand what I'm getting at. Though I didn't get horribly drunk (Lily says, "Thank God."), but one man wouldn't accept the fact that I'm engaged, so he kept trying to dance with me, and eventually, Aogii lost his temper. He can be very protective at times, and got us kicked out much earlier then when we planned to leave.

Soon, Aogii and I realized that there was a heat wave, and that the 120 degree weather wasn't normal. When I paid closer attention, I noticed people's chi were off so badly, I had to get out and help. Of course, everywhere that Sagurasei and Oritoki went was by cab, so Aogii and I just went by foot, only accompanied by water bottles.Oritoki, Aogii, and Sagurasei went ahead to Chicago as planned, but I stayed in Los Angeles. This was of course, after much cajoling, and reassurances from myself. I stayed behind because I had to help the people that were dying, who didn't have the nicely furnished homes that I and the over-paid celebrities had. So, ensued the telecast team.

What I did for the week I stayed behind was heal all that I could without making a trip to the hospital myself. It was quite simple, really. All I'd have to do was calm the people down, get them in some shade, and then just transfer a very small amount of Golden chi, and maybe some Physical chi to them. After the first successful day of about 58 people (yes, I counted), I went back to the hotel to rest, since the day had taken a toll upon my body. It was the second week before Lily-chan could contact me (the idiot), because she's still not able to read chi as easily from large masses of people. After another week, I decided to rest in her body, because resting in another, healthy person's body, and feeding off the chi, IS a lot more refreshing and healing then sleeping and eating. Actually, Lily-chan has an almost amazing amount of healing chi, and didn't mind very much, though she claims that I did manage to make her sick for a time. Gomen nasai, Lily-chan.

Anyways, someone that I had healed from a couple of days back, had reported the "amazing phenomenon," and I was being followed by a crew of newscasters, barraged with questions on how I did what I did. Though it's somewhat amusing, I can imagine the surprise that I got when a sickly man, dressed in rags, suddenly stood up, thanked me, and then ran off to do whatever he had to do. *chuckles* That was quite funny. Though becuase I didn't want anything about myself or my power to air on the local television station, all I had to do was concentrate, and send a small amount of Physical chi to the cameras, and the machine would jam. *chuckles again* It was quite funny, seeing their faces when everytime they'd start to film the camera, "mysteriously" crashed. Another couple of days of healing, and resting inside of Lily-chan, and I was off to meet my friends in New York City.

What surprises me most, is the amount of uncaring people there are in America. Or atleast Los Angeles. Many, I observed, passed by the poor and needy without a second glance, and it absolutely disgusted me. Even in Tokyo, the government puts up tents in the park, trash cans, and places to cook for the homeless. But still, there are those with kind hearts, that are willing to open up to others, and I found many people too, wanted to help. When I would heal complete strangers - about one week in - I was being followed by a group of adults ranging from 20 to 40, who would help lead who was finished with me, to a shelter, or their own homes! It was very nice, and when I had to leave, they even threw me a small celebration at one lady's home. I thank them now. Some names that I remember were: Betsy, Mary, Joe, Samuel, and Kyle (last names not included, for privacy concerns). They were the closest to me, in that short span of time, and I hope to keep in contact.

It is nice to be home, and be able to concentrate fully, and meditate. The area around America was so polluted with bustle, and human chi, that it was hard to get any kind of feeling of nature (Atleast, not until the ocean). But that's how Tokyo is. I also am surprised that I couldn't find one bath-house (not that I like them)! Not even a small one! I say, it's much nicer when I can now take a hot spring bath at home, and meditate for hours on end, even days. I could only do that at the hotel, but even then, my concentration broke easier. I am a little spoiled, ne? *smiles*

The next post will be of my short visit to New York City, Orlando, and Clearwater Beach. I say hello to my friends in America, new and old, and to live well. This visit has changed the way I see the people of America somewhat.

Also a thank you to everyone that spent the time to comment here, and kept me in their thoughts for the time I was gone.

Arigatou for Reading,

Akane

'Habata-ita tori no kage ga daichi wo hashiru yo.'

'The shadow of a flying bird runs along the Earth.'